Fighting the demons

For "addicts" the demons can be a lot of different things other than Satan himself. It could be "the urge" or "the trigger" or maybe even the smell of a familiar scent that you had when you were using. Perhaps a chemical smell of some-kind would trigger your brain into having a craving, you wouldn't even know it was happening until you found yourself on your way to score, that's when something happens and us and we have what we call  "a moment of clarity" .


This moment of clarity, to me is when God speaks to us and kind of gives us the option to "get out" of this obsessiveness of scoring. Even the act of attempting to use has an attractive romanticizing process to it.  If your like me, you know what that  is, you know that feeling. This is the feeling that's really hard to fight, because at this point-  you haven't really done anything yet.  But your flesh senses "it's coming" This is where we must stop and say "God help me to resist this temptation" 


The Lord always comes through for us in this time of desperation. Although, we are the ones that have to make the decision. It's literally good verses evil.


I pray that good triumphs over evil in your life today, and in mine as well.


Michael Angelo

Pain & Suffering

Hello and welcome to the "filantrypico" , "corazon espinado" web-site. This is here for those of you out there who are suffering every day, with "Pain".  The awful,  throbbing, stabbing, jolting, nerve-root pain. I have been in pain since 1992, after a "discectomy surgery" on my L/4, L/5 disc.  I know what it's like, and I know what I do, and what I've done wrong. This is why I'm doing this. To help you avoid the pit-falls of "pain management".

You really need to be honest with your Doctors, if you have a good Doctor your half way there. If they say, lose the "gut" then do it. a larger stomach pulls the spine forward and causes more pain. Our bodies are not designed that way. If he says to exercise, then "do it" Also, if you are in a position like I am, "disability" then you have a lot of time on your hands. Find something productive to do. Your mind will get temporarily distracted. I have also done some "bio-feedback", which is very good for the mind.  Look it up. google it, learn about your body, always ask questions.

Lets share our "Pain & Suffering" with each other, It doesn't really matter if you have Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Cancer, or like me, Low-back pain. I feel that this has happened to me for some reason. What I went through to get to this point is quite alarming. That will come out later. Lets hear from you out there. Please let us know what you do to help yourself through your pain.

Thank you and welcome again to "Mi Corazon Espinado" or "My Thorned Heart"

Michael Angelo